Also worth noting I can't bend my fingers out straight which is cool they're pretty much just stuck in a "c"
Like I get that the muscles are tight and all that shit and I start physical therapy today, but I have no clue how that's going to go. I have a feeling I'm going to be in more pain than anything. I don't think it's time for me to start that but the doctor I've been going to seems to think it's fine to start.
I've had quite a few people tell me he's not the best doctor. Which I've totally seen, because the last two appointments have literally just been get me in there look at the x-rays get me out. Try to explain to him how my upper arm, my shoulder, and my back are all sore but you know it's just because I haven't moved my arm.... No it's more like my arm barely smacked off of my seat when I was trying to drive last week, and damn near left me in tears.
To be honest, there's a lot of people that I would wish a lot of things on but this is not one of them. It's fucking horrible. I'm never going to feel the same again. Like even my mentality about being around the same equipment. It scares the shit out of me now. And that sucks because I fucking love that job and I really want to go back, but I can't get the moment of it happening out of my head. 😭 *Pop* over and over again.
Moving from The Bird Site.